Last night I became quick to respond instead of thinking first and then responding in an appropriate manner. When you yell at your husband, he doesn't take kindly to it. I let the dogs back in after Matt said, "Why don't you let the dogs in." I get aggravated when he makes a suggestion for me to do something when he could have saved the breath and done it himself. I expressed this and then went and let the dogs in. I knew that they would go and jump on him and that it had been raining and I relished in it for a minute, smiling to myself as I heard the commotion. I got them back in the kitchen and then went to the living room to sit down and wouldn't you know it. The dogs knocked over my half full tea from McDonalds and it was still sitting on the floor and Matt was still sitting in the chair. And I went off. He said he didn't know that they had done it, my response, "how could you not know?" He was sitting right next to it. While trying to clean up, I actually spilled even more and got even madder. In return he got mad and left to take a shower. He has not spoken to me since then.
We broke several "rules" last night.
1) ..."everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak
2) and slow to become angry." James 1:19
3) 'don't sin by letting anger control you.' Don't let the sun go down while you are still angry, for anger gives a foothold to the devil. Ephesians 4:26 - 27.
4) Be respectful
Matt and I have been married for 2 years, together for a total of 5. I am still learning, he is still learning, we are not perfect. Even though we are considered to be of one, we are still dealing with our own thoughts and feelings and sometimes selfish tendencies. It is often hard to think of the other and their feelings before dealing with our own.
Can anyone else relate?
I didn't want to apologize because I felt justified in my actions. After actually writing them down, I sound like a fool. I will apologize and I will also work on my to do list for the day and maybe make him something nice for dinner, (although, we may go out, it's my mom's birthday!)
TO DO LIST
1) Unload and load dishwasher
2) Laundry from the weekend
3) Organize the living room!
4) Grocery store if time for just the essentials
This is the prayer that I am praying today.